I may look okay but inside I feel like dying. Little by little, as the days go by it felt like I lose a part of me--a finger, a hand, a limb. It pains me inside. It felt as if I've been stabbed exactly in my heart and somebody is twisting the knife. I don't feel myself anymore. I act strange. I smile a lot to cover this pain I have. I don't know what to do. nobody knows what I am going through, and nobody would understand. Someday, I'll have the courage to stand up and fight for myself. I just pray that when that time comes I still got enough part of me to start all over again.