Friday, September 7, 2012


It was just really hard to digest everything that has happened. What she did was just so mean. I know I'm at fault but what gives her the right to do such thing? With all due respect I am mad at her. My apology was sincere.

I try hard to supress my tears. I was able to control it for a while but I really can't. I held my lecture handout and tried to read it but I never understood it. I was blank. I'm hurt. I appreciate my friends consoling me for a while. I want to speak, to let it all out but the place is not right. I don't want to cry in public. As I exit that building and escape the humiliation I've experienced I want to forget everything that has happened. The sudden attention. Her annoying voice. That judgmental faces. Everything repeats on my head. I feel crazy. I wish there's someone out there where I can let this out but no one's there. I felt more depressed. I went away. I rode the wrong jeepney. As I sit I burst into tears and tried my best to hide it. The guy on my left and right noticed. It seems like the guy on the right wants to console me. I would appreciate if he does. The jeepney dropped me off and I forgot my change. I almost got hit when I crossed the street. The heavy rain suddenly poured down. I did not run for cover. I just walked and let the rain mix with my sad tears. I've had enough today. I can't take it anymore. I can't wait for tomorrow.

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