Dear Ex Bestfriend,

I was holding on to the railings with sweat beads on my forehead as I stand on the LRT. I was on my way home from review school and I was very darn tired. The LRT is so crowded and I tried my best to make less physical contact with people I don't know. However, there was a familiar scent that caught my attention. It was the lady from behind. One lady got up from her seat and I took her place. I don't have plans on sittting anymore but I just needed a clearer gaze. Those familiar strokes of birthmark on her neck, that trademark ponytail, a beautiful set of teeth, that calming voice. It was you. My best friend from 5th to 6th grade. I was very surprised to see you. I can't even remember the last time I saw you. Shoot, I know you will get off on the next station and I really wanted to say hello but I'm afraid It'll be too akward. I wasn't sure but it felt like we both avoided each other's gazes. Next station, you left.

A pang of sadness hit me. You were my best friend, my sweet best friend. I consider myself blessed then, for I know a lot wanted to be close friends with you. You always have that charming, friendly disposition. I was blessed that among everybody you still chose me. We had an amazing friendship. Sadly, you moved into a far away place. We promise to write each other. You gave me your letter, your last letter. You told me to write you a letter, but I never did. You never did. High school made us so occupied that we didn't notice we have neglected a very beautiful friendship.

Years passed, I sent you an Facebook Friend request and you confirmed. I was delighted. I sent you a message and we chatted. I can sense that akward feeling as we exchanged responses. I felt bad. It felt awful. Are we still friends? Or just facebook friends? Time has passed and sadly we have changed. I'm thinking what could have been for the both of us if we maintained our childhood friendship.

I revisited your Facebook page and liked some posts. Despite being sad about our friendship I am happy that everything's going well for you. What happened to us has taught me that I must put value on my realtionship with my friends, and greater value to my best friends. Yes, I got a couple of best friends whom I share my life with and I strive to keep them for the longest time. I hope my friend that somewhere in your heart you'll remember that once, there was a person whom you become bestfriends with, and still remembers you.

Dear You,

I don't know if you will be able to read this.If not, maybe it's just not meant to be. Just kidding, I know how much you hate that line of mine. I admit it's really awkward to write you something like this or to write this way because I know there are chances that you won't see it. However, I really want to write you something tonight so please, read on.

We know for a fact that you are my best friend and both of us has been through a lot--series of fights, quarrels compensated with good laughs and happy moments together. We enjoy whatever we do or wherever we go as long as we are together. Remember our first year? You asked me if I'm happy, and sincerely, with a skip of a heartbeat, I said yes. I am happy, I still am.

However there are rough roads set as we walk and run in this world's paths and I admit, I was not really good with this. Expectations and assumptions overwhelm us and these led to heartbreaks. You want this, I don't want that, You don't want this, I want that. What happened to our pair of eyes that are connected invisibly with each other? Maybe we seldom stare at each other's eyes anymore. It seems like we somewhat lost that incomparable and amazing connection that we have and that is really saddening. I hope I'm wrong.

I just want to end this letter saying that no matter what is happening between the two of us, no matter how saddening, painful or hard it is to bear, I will always have my arms open wide ready to hug you (or not if you don't want to) and hear you out. 'Cause no matter what, you are my best friend, and that very important fact will always prevail.

Sincerely,
Maica D.

I love piggy back rides
With me holding on tight
And you securing me
We enjoy each other
Crazily running and walking around
With tireless laughs
And huge smiles on our faces
With me feeling secured
Lifted by the love of my life
I'm happy for the fact that 
You delight in carrying me
No matter how heavy I am
No matter how tired you are
I promise I'll give you a ride as well
or I'll try to lose some weight
So you won't have a hard time
Carrying me around
'Cause I love the piggy back rides
And I love the fact that
It's you who's carrying me on your back 

A Letter to Someone Handsome

Dear,

It may seem that the world doesn't appreciate your physical being, but let me say that I'm the one who values it. You may not believe it, for what I show and tell you was the opposite. But now, let me say you are handsome. You are beautiful. Don't you know that a lot has already told you that compliment? Even my mother said you are. I just don't tell you 'cause it sounds really weird for me to do so.You know we don't converse that way and our friendship is like everyday scrutiny. Maybe that's how we love each other, haha. Now I'm telling you, with all my heart, you are handsome. You have good looks. You are the guy version of beauty and brains. Crush-worthy. Move over, Papa P. (Oh well that's too much haha!)

But my dear, there is something beyond that handsome face. Let me start on your talents. I always testify on how amazing you are when it comes to writing. You are a great writer. Whatever subject and form, you can always write. It's a great entropy of your life. Girls melt whenever they read your writings about love. It's obvious that I'm your biggest fan. You're also good in academics. Don't you know there are certain lessons that I can't understand unless you teach me? I learn a lot from you. The list goes on but the more significant thing you possess is a caring and genuine heart. You are the guy who live and love with all your heart and soul. A guy with humility and sincerity. I love the way you love and I always thought that your girlfriend will feel blessed having you. There are guys who can be more handsome or well-built than you but you have the best muscle you can brag about and that is your heart. I don't care whether you are handsome or not, even you're not a Mr. Pogi contestant, 'cause beyond the superficial is something great that I'm proud of. I'm not bestfriends with you just because you're a fair-skinned tall guy with a cute face that I always like to pinch. It's because you understand and know me better, and for who you are in totality. It's not always about the looks, 'cause it's never permanent. You are handsome and you have a great loving heart. Your future wife has hit the jackpot.

So my dear, do not belittle yourself. It's saddening when you do that. You are worth something great. You are "something". There's no barf bag and giggling as I make this for I am sincere. So handsome, go out and share your smile to the world. I'll always be the one to catch the flying tomatoes. (Just kidding)

Biggest Fan,

Maica D.

Location : Don Ramon, Quezon City,

Nagtatampo ako sa'yo. Alam mo ba 'yun? Siguro akala mo hindi ako matampuhin, madalas ko kasi itong itago o hindi ko inaamin. Pero ngayon aaminin ko nagtampo talaga ako.

Nasaktan ako e, alam mo naman diba? Nakita mo. Nakita mo ang mga patak ng luha sa aking mata na pilit kong itinago. Pero wala naman ata akong maitatago sa'yo, alam mo na ang lahat sa akin. Ikaw ang nakakakilala sakin ng buo. At dahil dun mas lalo ako nagtampo. Pakiramdam ko napabayaan ako. Pinabayaan mo akong mag-isa, alam mo naman na hindi ko gustong mapag-isa sa mga ganitong panahon. Wala kang obligasyon na samahan ako pero hindi ba dapat may gawin ka? Nasaan ka? Pakiramdam ko nawala ka bigla.

Oo nga naman, marami kang inaasikaso. Maraming naghahanap sa'yo at masyado kang abala para intindihin pa ang kadramahang kong ito. Pero alam ko kayang kaya mo akong intindihin kahit gaano ka pa ka-abala. Ayaw kong isipin na wala akong halaga sa'yo, kasi sabi mo mahalaga ako sa'yo pero sumagi 'yun sa isipan ko. Lalo akong nalungkot at naiyak sa mga naisip ko. Bakit ganun ka? Ayaw na muna kita kausapin.

Dito ko napag-isip isip na mahal pala talaga kita. Na kahit nagtatampo ako, hindi kita matiis. Kahit ayaw kita kausapin, mayroon nagtutulak sa akin na gawin 'yun. Hindi rin kita natiis. Kinausap din kita. Sinabi mo ang mga kailangan kong marinig. Napangiti ako. Naintindihan kita.Siguro ganito ang nararamdaman mo kapag ako naman ang hindi mo maramdaman. Ngayon alam ko na. Patawarin mo ako. Bati na tayo ha?