Love Unspoken

Your eyes close, a fringe of lashes,
holding back the tears as they gather.
Why is it you hide from love,
even as it stands before you?
Your heart can see, love, even in the darkness.
Your hands rest at your sides,
though they long to reach out,
afraid to touch, afraid to feel.
Love in all it’s emotion, surpasses the physical.
Without even the faintest touch,
it leaves it’s imprint upon you.
Your voice hesitant, you dare not speak of love,
guarded, you keep your voice even,
afraid to let the emotion show.
Yet you give yourself away,
for I can hear love in your voice,
even as you pray for me,
even as you call out my name.
Your eyes speak of a love,
that has not yet found it’s voice.
I smile and let it go for now,
content to find myself,
in the presence of love unspoken.

Posted July 19th, 2010 by eternal_optimist

Dear Future Boyfriend,

Hey :-))))) Just so you know, I thought about you today, I thought about you yesterday, the other day, the day before the other day and so on. Insane, isn't it? Don't be too happy 'cause I don't feel happy about this. This bothers me a lot. Maybe you didn't think about me as much as I do and that is good to hear. I expect you to be strong in this waiting phase thing. You know what,  something tells me that it's okay to be with you now. I'm 20, it's not like I'm a restricted 13 year old. However, there's also something that tells me to wait for the right time. But really, when is the right time coming? Am I going to wait for 4,5, 6 years or more? I'm getting a little impatient and it isn't right. I dread that I'd start envying sweet couples and worse, I might search for you when I should be the one waiting. In fact, you wouldn't like it when I pursue you right? You will pursue me, gentleman.

I find it funny to write you this letter, It's like my wisdom went on a vacation. I got it back now, thank God. Dear, this is a serious matter. I know it will be great if we meet but it's only great if it's in the right time. Imagine the great risk we will put our hearts in to when we force things to happen. Sorry for being a little impatient, and whenever you feel the same way just hold on to the wisdom that God provided for us and to the grace that makes us more patient. I'm okay now, I know you have prayed for me. Thanks. I will wait, and that's a promise.

Love,

Your Future Girlfriend

I’m happy about the fact that I am fully able to talk to those people who has hurt me in the past. I mean, It’s really hard to do that. Greeting them on their birthdays, replying to their texts, saying “Hello” when you bump into them, being able to speak and even say nice memories when I’m asked about them. It’s not easy, but managing to face them with courage and a smile in your face shows how you’ve grown so much since they left. It also shows how you got better that you can even remember them with a smile on your face with no trace of bitterness whatsoever. It shows how you’ve moved on and ready to face new chapters with a brand new you.

Nais ko nang mahimbing
Ngunit ako'y nananatiling gising
Sa isip mo ba'y ako'y nasa iyong piling?
At inaasam-asam ang aking paglalambing?

Huwag mo naman ako masyado isipin
Baka ika'y magsawa't mawala ang pagtingin
Nais ko lamang na sa iyo'y sambitin,
Wag mangamba, ika'y iniisip ko rin.

Kaunting oras na lamang at umaga na,
Nakatingin sa langit sa bukas na bintana
Iniisip kung ano ang ating tadhana
At kung sa dulo'y haharap ba tayo sa dambana

Mahirap intindihin ang nagbubugsong damdamin
Ngunit mabuti na ito muna'y pigilin
Ipikit na ang mga mata, tayo ay manalangin
Nasa isip nati'y magkakatotoo din.

May tamang panahon, Huwag tayong maiinip
Sa ngayon tayo muna'y manatili sa ating mga isip
Tulog na, aking mahal, ang aking panghalip
Ako'y bibisita sa iyong panaginip

I'll always remember the words you said
That I should not be the one to fall first
'Cause it will prevent me from getting hurt
of the pain behind unrequited love.
Thanks for the advice, I'll keep this in mind.

Tatlong Salita

"Nababaliw ka na"

Sinasambit mo ito ng paulit ulit sa aking isip. Tatlong katagang madalas kong marinig mula sa'yo, at sa madalas mong pagsambit nito ito'y naging paborito mo na. Madalas mo itong sinasambit tuwing tayo ay magkasama, sa mga panahong kaya kong gawin ang lahat upang mapangiti ka lamang. Maging katawa-tawa, magmukhang tanga. Sa mga panahong nangigiti ako kapag kasama kita, kapag kausap ka, kapag nakatitig ka sa aking mga mata, ika'y takang taka at sasambitin ang mga salitang ito. Siguro nga tama ka, nababaliw na nga ako 'nun. Sana mas ninamnam ko ang tatlong salitang 'yun, baka sakaling mas nagising ako ng maaga. Palibhasa ibang tatlong salita ang nais kong marinig mula sa'yo. Tatlong salitang hinding hindi ko maririnig. Pero, paano kaya kung ang tatlong salita na nais kong marinig ay iyong naging paborito? Ano kaya ang ating estado? Masaya kaya tayo?

Salamat at 'di mo 'yun naging paborito. Totoo, walang biro. Hindi ko na naririnig ang pagsambit ng paborito mong mga salita, hindi ko rin naman hinahanap-hanap 'yun. Napapangiti na lamang ako sa mga nakaraan sa likod ng mga salitang 'yon, at sa aking pag-ngiti, hindi ako nababaliw, masaya lang ako. Dahil ako ay nabaliw ngunit natuto.

Ikaw? Nababaliw ka na ba?

Pag-ibig, Isang Patimpalak?

Ang aking pangarap

Pag-ibig mong mailap

Pinilit na mahagilap

At ikaw ay nahanap

Ngunit ako'y napatulala

Sitwasyon ko'y malala

Sapagkat aking naalala

Sayo pala'y maraming nakapila

Kumukuha ng iyong atensyon

Sumusugal ng emosyon

Nagbibigay ng panahon

Na tila ito'y kompetisyon

Sa dami ng sumusuyo

Ako ba'y dapat ng lumayo?

Mistula bang malayo

Ang pag-asang maging tayo?

Sa aking mga kalaban

Sa hugis ng pangangatawan

At sa kanilang kagandahan

Ako'y walang kalaban-laban

Ako ba'y susuko?

Ano ba ang laban ko?

Akin lamang maipapangako

Pag-ibig na hindi mapapako

Hindi ka magrereklamo

Iyon sana ang makita mo

Iyan ang aking pagsamo

Pag-asang nais matamo

Tila kalaba'y humahalakhak

Sa kabiguan, ako'y nasasadlak

Tanong ko lamang, sa aking pag-iyak

Pag-ibig nga ba'y isang patimpalak?

Nakakalungkot isiping

Pag-asa ko'y katiting

Ngunit sa puso ko'y hinihiling

Sa dami ng sayo'y nahuhumaling

Na kahit sila ay unahin

Ako'y di mawawala sa'yong paningin

Dahil ako ang iyong pipiliin

Pipiliin na mahalin.

At 'pag ako ang napili

Hindi ka na masasaktang muli

Mamahalin kita sa bawat sandali

Dahil sa puso ko, ika'y walang katunggali

Ano ba'ng laban ko

Sa mga nakapila

Papunta sa'yo?

I can't hardly wait
For the moment that I will
Only be with you

I love piggy back rides
With me holding on tight
And you securing me
We enjoy each other
Crazily running and walking around
With tireless laughs
And huge smiles on our faces
With me feeling secured
Lifted by the love of my life
I'm happy for the fact that 
You delight in carrying me
No matter how heavy I am
No matter how tired you are
I promise I'll give you a ride as well
or I'll try to lose some weight
So you won't have a hard time
Carrying me around
'Cause I love the piggy back rides
And I love the fact that
It's you who's carrying me on your back 

“Let no one who loves be called altogether unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbow.” 

― J.M. Barrie, The Little Minister

"I wanted to just lie in the couch with you, under the blankets, with a movie rolling, with me under your warm embrace, no kissing nor sex unlike the movies show us, just you and I embracing each other is already perfect, our laughs overpowering the pelting rain, the coldness of the weather beaten by the warmth of our hugs, you whispering the sweet words to me, I stare at your eyes, with tears of joy, and a sincere smile. I am happy :-)"

Dear Future Boyfriend,
          
               I just want you to know that recently, a lot has been looking for you. It’s funny, I know, for I haven’t even met you yet.  However, I didn’t feel pressure every time I’m asked about you. I just gave them a smile and say, “Let’s not hurry, I will introduce him to all of you soon” :-)
               
                But you know what, sometimes I wonder how it looks like or feels like when we are together now. How my friends or those curious people would react when they see me approaching..with you holding my hand. I wonder how you would respond to the warm and even the cold greetings. I hope you will just shrug it off, for there are always people who will raise their eyebrows on us. I hope that you are too happy that we are together to even mind that matter. I hope that you are happy that I am your girlfriend because you know, I’m more than happy that I am introducing you to do them as my boyfriend, my dearest.
                
                But for now, I think it’s best if you just sleep a little longer my dear. You know I’m still dealing with a lot of things right now and I bet you know that It’s not yet a good time for us to be together. I still got a lot to learn. You deserve the best my dear, and I would love to give that best to you. I’m not feeling any pressure whenever they look for you because I know this matter shouldn't be rushed. Let’s just concentrate first on what God wants us to focus on like our studies, families, responsibilities and of course, our relationship with Him. Let us continue to love Him more everyday and prepare our hearts. Let Jesus guard our hearts, for He is the Lord of our relationship.
                
                Writing this puts a huge smile on my face. I promise that I will protect my heart and save it for you.With God’s help, I will gladly wait and pray. And when the time comes that we’re already together, I believe the first person that will be the happiest mood is God, for His perfect will is for us to meet. That is really worth praying and waiting for, isn't it? So let me say, “See you soon, my dear <3”

                                                                                             With so much love,
                                                                                              Your Future Girlfriend <3
                                                                                                                                                                      

L’amour est un mot à utiliser delicatement; 
delicatement, je te ferais des calins; 
calins, compliments; 
compliments sur ton beau visage, tes yeux de cristal et ta personalité d’ange; 
ange, mon ange; 
ange qui m’a choisi parmis tous les hommes;
homme, je suis le tiens;
tiens mon coeur, il n’y a qu’un mot pour decrire ce que j’éprouve;
j’éprouve l’amour.

-Anon.

I Love you

Not because of what you can offer

And what you can give either

I just know I'll be Loved forever

By someone I'm grateful for.

I Love you

And this is never a bluff

But telling you is not enough

So even when times get rough

I'll always make you feel my Love

I Love you

For a million reason

In every change of season

And it will always be my mission

To prove this all to you

I Love you

Whatever happens between us

Whoever crosses our paths

Wherever life takes us

Remember, I Love you

Dearest Future Boyfriend,

You know I have a lot of things to say to you and I don't know how to start but I'll start by saying thank you so much, because among all the woman here on earth it is I you chose to love. Thank you for pursuing me, for praying for me and for waiting for me. That really means a lot, you know.

When you come I will have someone who will understand me more than anyone else. Someone who is willing to give a listening ear when I talk and a speaking mouth when I'm silent. Someone who is willing to do the simplest things like waiting for me so that I won't eat alone, or doing the groceries with me. Someone who will be sensitive enough to see there's something wrong no matter how good I am in concealing it. Someone who can put up with all my flaws. Someone who will cover my eyes for things I should not see. Someone who knows how to hurt me but won't do it. Someone who will wipe away my tears. Someone that will surely reciprocate my love and that is you.

I don't know if I want you now in my life but maybe it's better if we don't meet yet. But one thing is for sure. I'm going to prepare and wait. You deserve the best. When you come, I'd be very happy. See you soon my dearest.

Love, Love, Love

Your Dearest.

I love it when you hug me, 'cause whenever you hug me I feel secured. I love it when I'm inside that embrace and I can feel your heartbeat in tune with mine. I love the piggy back rides. It's like you're bringing me back to my childhood and letting me experience it again. I love it when you carry me. It's like being weak and there you are strong enough to lift me up. I love those funny faces of yours. It never fails to cheer me up. I love the times when you feed me. It sounds funny but that's really sweet. You make dinner a hundred times better. I love it when you hold my hand and lock it with yours. It's amazing that our hands fit perfectly with each other. Maybe God really designed it to be like that. I love when you do these little things and I wish you won't get tired of  for these little things that you do makes me fall in love more and more each day.

My Dearest,

When the world turns its back on me, I yearn for that very single person that will understand me perfectly. When the world doesn't make sense, when no one understands me, when everyone is too insensitive to see the pain in me, I wonder where you are and why I haven't met you yet. I really want to know you, I really do. I know you're the who can understand me more than anyone else in this world. I know you're the one I can share the insides of my heart. I hope I can have you in my life right now.

However, I need to be a little more patient. You can't come yet. We still need time. For the mean time, I'll just put up with everything, all the hurt, the pain, and the like. God won't leave me anyway. I hope you'll be more patient as well. Patience is a virtue. I'll keep on praying for you.

Love, Love, Love,
Your Dearest :-)

Not the First One

If I'm not the first one you think of when you wake up,
It won't ruin my day.
If I'm not the first one you turn to when you are in trouble,
I won't be hurt
If I'm not the first one that makes you happy,
I won't be sad
If I'm not the first one you seek when you need help,
I won't be offended
If I'm not the first one who makes you jump in excitement,
I won't be jealous
If I'm not the first one you prioritize,
I won't be mad
If I'm not the first one who makes you cry,
I won't weep
If I'm not the first one you adore,
I won't be insecure
If I'm not the first one you are grateful for,
I won't feel insignificant
If I'm not the first one you Love,
I won't feel betrayed
It's okay If I'm not your only one..
As long as God is your First one,
I would always love to be the Second one.

"Sometimes it hurts so much to Love
It's so much easier to hate
To never have Loved at all
To never have known Love
Than to walk around in this state
To think of you incessantly
To want to feel your touch
and the castle of your embrace
To hear those words
That you Love me just as much
I would be a fool to anticipate
A fool not to hate
Because it hurts too much too Love
It's a non-physical torture
To Love and be in Loved with you."

- Charles Moses Rangel